Way too deep in.

Today I drank all the ocean,
I drank every single bit
And even though i was drowning,
I was comfortable
Cos I knew my soul was at the surface
Today I swam deep inside the sea
So deep my eyes turned deep blue
Nothing I could see
Nothing I could hear
Except the three words
beating to the sound of my pulse.

Today I turned away from the shore
and let go off you for the first time
I could feel myself breathing
Steady.
But how could I swim further
Knowing there were two worlds I could choose from?

Today I swam deep inside the sea

So deep my eyes turned deep blue
Nothing I could see
Nothing I could hear
Except the three words
I miss you.

Colorful Icing

I just love a happy ending.
Whether its about a mother finally seeing her little kid smile and tell her all about his day at school,
or a nervous, simple teenage girl going on her first date in her freshman year, after spending hours at home in front of the mirror, using up the entire acne cream her mom just bought her to just look good, and feel good.
Cos those 5 hours, sitting on the uncomfortable bathroom seat with curlers literally ripping the roots of her hair out, squashed tomato and lemon smeared over her face because some website said it would  make her skin glow?
They changed how she felt, and at the end of all of that? She was happy.
And thats how it changed her life.
I could read Born to Run - by  Michael Muporgo uncountable times because just the spark in that book and the happiness Alfie feels when he's running with BrightEyes, isn't that what freedoms about?
People say that happy endings only exist in fairy tales.
But I'm looking at my life right now, and I've got an evil witch trying to boss me around. I've got those evil friends who cut up all my dresses so I can't be Cinderella at the next dance. I've got the prince charming I know that I'm never gonna end up being with.
But hey.
Snow white almost died and survived, right?
Cinderella walked home on a single glass slipper and didnt get blisters on her feet.
Sleeping Beauty slept forever and didnt miss out on too much.
And they all lived happily ever after.
So maybe, just maybe
I can too.
Its not about the fake smiles and the striking poses you put on when you're placed in front of a camera lens.
Its not about that one day where everyone made you feel good about yourself and you feel like the most important person in the world.
But just like Alfie and BrightEyes, its about the freedom.
Cos in the end, before I go to sleep forever?
Its not gonna be about all the bad days,
its gonna be about how i brought myself up and smiled because i knew that everything was going to be all right :)

The other day, i told the school bus to wait for me and I ran half way across school to meet this someone.
When I ran, i felt like electricity. I felt static, with my hair in my face and everything. I felt like BrightEyes running beside Alfie.
Faster and faster, faster and faster.
And just for that split second when I stopped and smiled,
I knew I'd already had my happy moment,
and this one would last forever.

aarushi.